Is This Thing On?

by Stefani on 2-August-2010

So, um…..


How’s things? I brought you a flower. It’s a coneflower. It’s special because it’s my signature flower. It’s hardy, resilient, old fashioned. It’s does its best work under pressure and while it seems a little rough around the edges it can actually be quite soothing and helpful when you’re in need. Do you like it? I grew it myself.

Yeah, um…. so, you know how when you haven’t talked to someone in a really long time, you think about calling her up, but you know that you will have so much to say, and right now you really need to round up the kids and get to piano lessons, so maybe you’ll call after, but then you have to make dinner so maybe you’ll call after that, but then there’s dishes and bath time and “mama will you read to me?” and then it’s just too late, so maybe tomorrow, but then tomorrow comes and you wake up late so you’re behind all day and then…Β Β you look up and it’s been weeks and weeks and then you don’t call because you know you’ll never have time to properly catch up and so you kind of drift apart but you think about her lots and wonder how she is and so finally you just email and say, “Hey, I just wanted to tell you I was thinking of you,” but you wish it was more, because she’s your friend and you love her and you’d like to tell her all your stories and you’d like to hear all of her stories, but right now you’re doing your very best to just keep swimming, so you just think, “some day soon I’ll call” and you hope she’s not mad, but you know she’s probably not because she’s a real friend, a good friend, and she knows how it is. She knows how YOU are.

You know?

It’s been like that.


I’ve missed you.

I’ve thought about you.

I hope you’re well.

Here’s the Spark Notes version, so that we can move on, and act like this long and awkward absence never happened:

1. There was a trip to Granny’s and it was fabulous. We ate from our garden and you just can’t beat that feeling.

2. Granny got to come home with us for a week, which was awesome, but it didn’t go according to plan at all. Two of my guys came down with strep while she was here, so pretty much all she got to see of “the big city” was the biggo mess we call home.

3. I sent TWO of my boys off to sleep away camp (one more than last year). While they were gone I had the silly idea that I would paint their bedrooms and surprise them with new (to them) beds. And that, friends, is when all hell broke loose.

One thing led to another and, before I knew what hit me, everything I own was in my garage coated in a layer of concrete dust. We moved in with my parents and began an all out house remodel on the scale of Extreme Home Makeovers.

Only… um… without the speedy timeline, budget, talent and expertise.

We’re back home now, but still dealing with some major chaos. We have no doors, no table, no couches, no stove top, one working bathroom.. or at least it WAS working up until yesterday at Β around about the time that the Jamaican Olympian arrived.

You think I’m kidding, don’t you?

I assure you, I’m not, and the Jamaican Olympian is why I can’t stick around and talk any longer, much as I’d like to. I have to get in the shower (with a jug of water and a rag, thanks) before he wakes up. Did I mention that we have no doors?

Anyhow, I promise, I’ll tell you the rest of the story and show you pictures soon.

For now, just know that I’m here and I’ve missed you and I’m looking forward to hearing all about your summer too!

holly c. August 2, 2010 at 8:22 am

I wondered where you were! Welcome back. πŸ™‚

Stephani August 2, 2010 at 8:38 am

So glad to have you back! I have missed your posts!

Cassandra August 2, 2010 at 8:47 am

Goodness! Sounds so exciting! I thought you had come up with some master plan to beat the Texas heat that involved staying away from the computer! Welcome back. You’ve been missed!

Mama Urchin August 2, 2010 at 8:49 am

Been missing you, did i send you that email? I meant to, even told Eren I would.

Eren August 8, 2010 at 9:21 am

Yep, she did!

Toni McKinley August 2, 2010 at 8:55 am

Hang in there Stef!!! Your house looks beautiful despite it still being under construction!! Hope it all ends soon before the official school year starts…… whenever that date may be for you. πŸ˜€

Birgitte August 2, 2010 at 8:56 am

Missed your posts! Haha, your life sounds like mine. We are remodeling too and still have no hot water during summer (during winter it is heated by our wood cookstove). It’s been a year now…

Kris August 2, 2010 at 9:07 am

Hey! Glad you’re back ~ and now we’re really curious πŸ™‚
Many Blessings on your Monday & look forward to pictures & more details!

Angela August 2, 2010 at 9:20 am

Good to see you!!! πŸ™‚

Kate August 2, 2010 at 10:39 am

So glad to see you back! Can’t wait to hear more when you get a chance. Hang in there!

elizabeyta August 2, 2010 at 1:28 pm

Hello (after I pick myself up off the floor from laughter)! I am glad you are back and hearing from you. Life hits like this often in my life as well!

Sherry-Ann August 2, 2010 at 2:14 pm

Glad that your back and I loved your post, that is so how I feel somedays. I am so glad that we as mothers can understand what it takes to just keep going, just keep going! sigh!! Freinds are so special and most times they have to take a back seat when we are raising our children. Glad your back!

Lindsey August 2, 2010 at 2:38 pm

LOVE this post! Welcome back to the web ;). I’m going to be teaching Nature Study to PK-2nd graders this fall (once-weekly homeschool co-op), and the idea is to do it in a Charlotte-Mason-y, hands-on way. I’m going to be looking to your blog for inspiration, as I’ve done in the past with my own kids!

Tania August 2, 2010 at 3:14 pm

Welcome back. We understand! We have all been there.

Sarah M August 2, 2010 at 3:33 pm

Oh my goodness! THAT is one.good.excuse. πŸ™‚
Can’t wait to see how it turns out!
Sarah M

JaneW August 2, 2010 at 7:18 pm

Welcome back!! Blessings to you and the men in your life. Thanks for thinking of us and coming back!

Cynthia August 2, 2010 at 7:19 pm

You know, it’s too funny – the last TWO times you’ve blogged, you’ve done so the day after I’ve been wondering how you are. I think I should wonder more often – I do miss hearing about your life!

Jennifer August 2, 2010 at 8:08 pm

Wow! You have been busy! Now, I’m really curious about the Jamaican Olympian…looking forward to your next post.

Hannah August 2, 2010 at 9:56 pm

Yea! You’re back. I wondered if there might be something from you upon going through all my Google Reader posts after returning from Colorado. And yes, I totally know what you mean about the difficulty of catching up with a friend. It’s why I stink at long-distance friendships.

So curious about the Olympian! Is he a bobsledder?! πŸ˜‰

jm August 2, 2010 at 10:11 pm

So glad to hear from you! I admit to being a bit worried about things on the ranch. I look forward to hearing the rest of your story.

april August 2, 2010 at 10:37 pm

you are back! yeah!

JaneWild August 3, 2010 at 2:44 am

Love this post!!!
I so understand, and man you describe that feeling well.
Glad to see the post sounds so exciting, and can’t wait to hear more!

april August 3, 2010 at 6:56 am

Missed you.

Pam - captured by our cameras August 3, 2010 at 7:23 am

Love how your cone flower looks like a microphone. Perfect for your post title.

Thanks for taking the time to respond to my email last week, especially now knowing you’ve been dealing with a “bit” of chaos.

Just keep swimming.

C August 3, 2010 at 2:42 pm

Well, Thank you God! I was really afraid something horrible had happened, and we couldn’t support you when you needed it. Glad to have you back, sweetie, you were surely missed.

Holly August 3, 2010 at 6:57 pm

You are hilarious!!! I’m so glad to see a post but I TOTALLY understand. Thanks so much for answering my email, despite your incredible CRAZINESS!!!!
Take your time.

Charlotte August 3, 2010 at 8:11 pm

Thanks for posting on my birthday! It was all for me, right? Well, probably not, seeing as this is the first time I’ve actually commented here. But I loved the post and I’m glad to see you back online. Keep it coming… when you dig out, of course!

Elaine August 4, 2010 at 6:42 am

I love those truth-is-stranger-than-fiction stories! The picture in my mind of a doorless bathroom, a bucket, and a Jamaican Olympian will keep me chuckling most of the day. Just promise you’ll give all the details to us later.

Lisa Clarke August 4, 2010 at 7:39 am

You know, it sounds like those stories are going to be worth the wait πŸ™‚

Hope things calm down for you soon (and that you get some doors!)

molly August 5, 2010 at 6:50 pm

i’m so glad you’re back! i’ve certainly missed you. are you anxiously awaiting mockingjay??? can’t wait to read it!

Martianne August 6, 2010 at 7:27 am

Just wanted to let you know I enjoy your blog and passed on an award to you. πŸ™‚

Relyn August 6, 2010 at 11:05 am

Yes, this is a story you must tell soon. SOON!

Anna August 6, 2010 at 1:37 pm

so glad to see you back.

rae August 6, 2010 at 5:08 pm

i LOVE your post!! unfortunately, i have way too many friends that our relationships are now like this. πŸ™ i just need to start calling one a week. that’s a plan. can’t wait to read more of this story! πŸ˜‰

Debbie Rosenkranz August 17, 2010 at 3:44 pm

Oh thank goodness! I was really worried!
I have been thinking and praying ’bout you and yours and am really glad to hear that you are okay!

marjorie August 25, 2010 at 1:44 pm

That certainly sounds like life! Nice to have you back πŸ™‚

Dawn Suzette August 31, 2010 at 12:37 am

Yes… the coneflower. Lovely match!

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