by Stefani on 4-November-2007

Roses for Mama

I love my life.

I really do.

It’s messy and loud, but it’s mine and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

That said, there’s nothing like a birthday to make you (okay me) all broody and pensive about what you are, and what you thought you’d be, where you are, where you’re going, what you’ve done and what you haven’t. I think far too much. I know this to be true.

I found myself all twitchy and agitated today, wanting to be right where I am, wrapped up in little boy love and at the same time, wanting to be wearing a scarlet red dress, cut up to there, in a convertible, with big rhinestone sunglasses, passing through lush green mountains in Belize and listening to flamenco on the radio, silver scarf trailing behind me. Maybe a new book having just hit the stands, and a gallery opening to attend next week. Yeah, that’s it.

I want the exotic, wordly, see it all and do it all me, and also the home-body, lay on the floor and play hotwheels with my guys me.

Rose As Road Block

Then, the lines between those two worlds blur just enough, when I introduce my fella to the Gipsy Kings (yes, it’s really spelled that way, I checked) and we dance around the kitchen and laugh so hard our cheeks hurt. And I know, to my core, that no life I could have chosen would be as wonderful as this one.


Yeah, I’m right where I belong.

Still though, a red dress would go well with the wine and the rose, don’t you think?

Reds When They've Gone to Bed

Sarah Jackson November 4, 2007 at 8:07 pm

Nothing wrong with putting the red dress on! Looks like a beautiful birthday.

BTW, I am so coveting that little van.

Aimee Greeblemonkey November 4, 2007 at 8:31 pm

Love the van + rose visual.

And happy birthday!

Meg November 4, 2007 at 10:56 pm

Happy Birthday! It’s my Dad’s birthday too. We just celebrated number 74 with him.

Eren November 5, 2007 at 3:10 am

One) We listen to the Gipsy Kings all the time. It is one of S’s faves. I think we have every CD they have ever recorded Two) Love the little bus and rose photo…so great! 3) Nothing hotter than a mom of three boys that can slink herself into a sweet little red dress…ahem…according to my husband at least. *wink*

Much love friend!!!

Ellie November 5, 2007 at 3:28 am

Happy happy happy Birthday Wishes.
I’m sure you could get a slinky scarlet dress with your birthday money, and those adorable boys could make some rhinestone glasses. And the book – well, when it does hit the stands we’ll have all pre-ordered. And, You – you go to gallery openings every day, at your own house.
I so totally know how you feel – that thing of the “lost-possibilities”. It doesn’t at all mean you don’t want or love what you have, it just means you have an active imagination and a passion for exploring.
Mind you – you would look pretty hot in that dress with the scarf and glasses, and the wind through your hair!

erin November 5, 2007 at 4:13 am

I can hear the tango in the background…

kristin November 5, 2007 at 4:48 am

if you write a book, i would buy it.

Jade November 5, 2007 at 6:27 am

Happy Birthday Stef! I love, love, love the Gipsy Kings!!! And I can totally relate to your fantasy. I, however, plan trips online and never go…. That’s my way of coping. Maybe I’ll do that today. That sounds fun!

Sarah November 5, 2007 at 6:55 am

Happy Birthday!

I love your blog. It reminds me to “stop and smell the roses”…things happen during the day and I often think, “This is not what that Blue Yonder mommy would do!” You are an amazing mother…your boys are very lucky!

Anne November 5, 2007 at 9:56 am

Happy Birthday…wear the red dress while you play Hot Wheels – why not?

Tracy November 5, 2007 at 10:00 am

Happy belated birthday!

Heather November 5, 2007 at 12:25 pm

Happy birthday, girl! I’m reading “Eat, Pray, Love” and I think that the author, Liz Gilbert, would say that you’re ego is arguing with your heart. Happens to me all the time. You’re beautiful!!!

greenemother November 5, 2007 at 4:43 pm

Happy belated birthday!
The great thing about getting another year older is that life still has so many more cards to hand you. And you just never, ever know what’s up ahead, around the corner! If you want something bad enough, you’ll find a way to get it~

Lisa November 6, 2007 at 12:15 pm

Beautiful images, as always. Happy birthday!

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