Hello there. Is anyone still poking around these parts?
It has been silent here, I know, but don’t let that fool you. There has been much life at the ranch, so so much. In fact it is, at least in part, the overabundance of life that has kept me quiet here.
Silence is the fabric upon which the notes are woven. ~Lawrence Duncan
Our learning endeavors have gotten rather demanding and consuming.
The remodeling saga wages on.
There’s been a little traveling, and we’ve added several new adventures to our list of weekly commitments.
We are happy. We are good. We are in the midst of a glorious fall – all the hell heat of Texas summer behind us- and an exciting path is laid out before us. It has taken all of me, ALL OF ME, though to learn to juggle everything on our plates and still maintain our family’s sense of peace and continuity – to preserve a little space – a little margin – in our very full lives.
I didn’t mean to leave you hanging though. I’m really very sorry for that. Truth be told, I didn’t mean to be away at all, actually. It’s a funny thing … how easy it gets to stay gone once you’ve taken leave. I didn’t expect that.
It has felt a bit like freedom though… to leave the camera at home, to keep my thoughts my own and our days a family matter. It has felt good, in some ways, to be quiet, to float, to steer clear of the sometimes overwhelming, awe-inspiring, world of blogging.
I’ll confess to you that so often those windows into the lives of others leave me feeling… like an under achiever, jealous, less – less talented, less worthy, less interesting. It has been good for me to step away from that and just be, just know . It has been good, yes, and also so necessary for me in what has turned out to be a time of change and upheaval for our little family.
Still, I miss the meditation of blogging. I miss ending the day by reflecting on the best bits of it, savoring the images and moments that I want to hold on to. I’ve done a lot of looking back at old posts lately, as I’ve tried to decide what the future holds for this space, and I must say that am so grateful for them. What a tremendous joy it is to get to relive, if only for a moment, the best parts of days gone by. I don’t think I can give that up entirely.
I miss the sharing too…. hearing from you, trading ideas, comforting in the hard times and celebrating with each other in the good times. In the sometimes isolating world of mothering you have been a valued friend to me.
Thank you for that, truly. And thank you for the well wishes in my absence. Thank you for your tireless patience with silly, flighty me.
And so I am here…. here to say, “hello, friend. How have you been?”
I can’t promise that I’ll be here daily, but I do hope to be here more regularly. It’s important to me, and I really do hope that you’ll join me from time to time.
Until next week then, be well and soak in this glorious, golden, fall weather. We’ll see you soon!