Well it's official. My oldest boy is now firmly tucked away in the woods, off on his first sleepaway camp adventure.
He has a mama-made laundry bag that he will probably not use. He's got his Papa's old Boy Scout canteen, complete with a new strap. He's got his cousins in the same cabin with him, a new pocket knife hanging from his belt loop and a week full of fun stretched out before him. And I know for sure that he has everything he could possibly need because I fretted over the packing list for not less than a month.
I'm sure he's having the time of his life. He's probably not bathing and has already spent all his pocket money on soda and candy bars. I'm sure he's giggling non stop at endless boy potty humor and grinning ear to ear over his bigness.
I'm thrilled for him really. I have such great camp memories and can't wait to hear all about the ones that he makes.
As for me though… this is not so fun. I'm seeing that it is a lot more fun to be the camp dropee than it is to be the camp dropper.
I'm busy with his brothers and life as usual… laundry, lists, hands to hold and feats to accomplish. But I keep wondering what he's doing. Is he too hot? Is he making friends? Is he happy, scared, lonely, excited? I keep fast forwarding and wondering how on earth I will manage it next year when his younger brother goes, or even worse, when it isn't just camp, but college and it will be months before I see him. It's been less than 24 hours and I miss him something awful, and of course I'm asking that question that seems like a VERY recurring theme in this whole business of child-rearing – "Why do they have to get so big so fast?"
I know. Silly. But it's who I am. It's what I do.
Thankfully I have two young men left who have LOTS of plans to keep me busy. They have deemed this week "Camp Goofball" at our house. They've got lists of things that we absolutely MUST do – rollerskating, doughnut making, lake day and more.
So I'm off to gather myself up by the flip flop straps,slather on some sunscreen and forge ahead.
Happy Monday folks!